Emma Journal

so I have a GREAT fucking story for you all tonight...

today was my day off, I was layin around being lazy. JJ called me around 2:00 to tell me he was leaving work. I said "okay cool, see you in a little bit" and I jumped in the shower.

he usually gets home within an hour, but two and a half hours passed and I started to get worried. I called at 4:30, no answer. I left a voicemail and told him to call me back when he could. 5:00 rolled around and I got really nervous... I called him several times in a row, still with no answer. he never EVER turns off his phone, and if his car broke down or if he had to work late he would have called me and told me. I called his mom and she hadn't heard from him either. I got really nervous and scared and went into crazy rescue mode. I jumped in my car, filled it with gas, and drove from here ALL the way down lagrange down past like 35th street since that's the way he takes to and from work. I was driving real slow, keeping my eyes out for his truck, for accidents, for ambulances, for roadblocks, anything. I kept calling and calling, no answer. I was frantic and sobbing in my car. I got home and collapsed in bed and katie gave me a big hug. I kept calling and calling, still no answer. I left so many voicemails and text messages that I lost track. I turned off my lights, turned on music, and laid in my bed sobbing for seriously 2 hours. I really, truly thought he was laying dead in an alley somewhere. I was so worried.

so it's fucking 8:30 and I'm worried to death and I'm sick of crying, so I decide to call him again. it rang three times and he ACTUALLY ANSWERED!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so relieved that he was alive that the tears immediately stopped. he said something was wrong with his truck and his mom was driving him home, and that he would call me when he got home.

he gets home and calls me. I figured maybe his truck died and that's why he had to get picked up, but it was really strange that he wasn't answering his phone so I asked him where he was, and this is what he told me....

"I was in jail."

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apparently he got in a fight with someone at work in the parking lot. cops rolled past, saw what was happening, and put them both in jail in handcuffs. his fucking truck is IMPOUNDED, he has to bail it out in 5 days and it's going to cost him $1000, and he has a court date on august 14th. he doesn't know how he's going to get to or from work for the next five days, and he won't have any money left after bailing his truck out so basically all the money he was saving for a down payment for a new car will be gone.

all because he couldn't fucking think before he acted, and he couldn't fucking control himself.

then he gets all upset when I was mad at him and called him a fucking idiot. HE RUINED MY DAY. I spent my entire day off in tears, calling and calling and calling. I THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD. what a major asshole move. he kept telling me "I love you... I know I messed up... but I need you right now. I need you to tell me that you forgive me."

and maybe this makes me a bitch, but I'm going to have a real hard fucking time forgiving him for this one. he singlehandedly fucked up his record, his finances, his job, our relationship, and our future.

I don't even know what to do. I honestly seriously don't want a boyfriend that's been in jail. I don't want him to be "that guy". and I fucking feel like if this happened once, it'll happen again.

he keeps telling me how much he's grown up in the past few hours and that he feels more mature now than he's ever been and blah blah blah... but all I ever hear from him is excuses and empty promises, and I never see him getting any better.

I just don't know how I'm supposed to get over this one.

Introducing, Pipkin and Gulliver!

( 3 pics + a question on hamtype )

Hi there--

I've been trying to find a vector art tutorial for PSP on the net since all the vector art tutorial links in the memories are dead but can't seem to find any  D: Does anyone know of one?

Thank You!!

My old man Dr.Einstein, is...well, an old man. I have some concerns of late so I'll just explain his symptoms and hopefully someone can give me some advice.

1) His eyes are shut with gook, it looks like it could be a protrusion, I've done the wiping with a warm damp cloth and they open up for a day and then I have to wipe them the next day. He really doesn't like that one bit.

2) He's had rapid weight loss. I can feel all the bones in his little body. He also never runs on the wheel or anything anymore.

3) He hasn't eaten in three days. I keep putting new food in the bowl just in case he just doesn't want "old food" but he won't eat.

4) He has poop right inside his anus(this has been going on for the last two or three days that I've noticed) at the edge so as I can just pull it out very carefully with a tissue. It's fairly hard and it's already out basically on the edge of his anus. His anus hole also seems to be very large. 

I would take pictures but I have no working camera at the moment. If anyone could offer advice or knows whats wrong with him, that would be great and I'd really appreciate it.  He's my last hamster out of the 14 I had at one point and I love him dearly. I've googled a lot and can't find anything online so I thought I'd post here and see if anyone knew. Thanks guys.

I don't wanna get mine or anyone else's hopes too high, but I'm gonna tell you what I was talking about last night.

a representative from quickstar productions contacted me via the band and offered me a spot on their next rock compilation cd. basically this is an organization that puts out different types of compilation CD's in order to help local bands gain exposure. the guy offered all kinds of information including email and phone number, and I checked out both their myspace and the website and it all looks very legit. they have discovered and produced lots of local bands and this is a really great opportunity for me.

I was a little suspicious as to what this offer meant.. I figured I'd have to come up with a track, record it and submit it, and then have to wait for a response as to whether it made the cut or not. BUT, I was scouring their website for information as I said, and it actually said that if you have been personally contacted ((which I have)) that you are GUARANTEED a spot on the compilation.

so naturally I got really excited. I told the representative that I was definitely interested, but I needed to find some bandmates first since my band recently broke up.

I posted a few bulletins and within literally only about 15 minutes I had a drummer and a guitarist. the drummer is alissa's friend who used to come and hang out at a lot of our practices, and the guitarist is a guy that has auditioned for our band before but we decided we didn't really need a second guitarist at the time. SO all I need is a bassist and probably a lead guitarist and then we're good to start working on some tracks.

I'm so effing excited. even if this compilation cd doesn't work out, this at least means I just found new bandmates!

I used to have a phobia that everything had to be even. If I hit my right arm I had to hit my left arm. If I have to hit my left foot, I have to hit my right foot. If I ate things I had to eat even bites of things. I thought if things weren't even I would have bad luck. Thought something horrible would happen to me.

I don't know if it is remarkable, but my phobia is snails and slugs. I shake and almost cry and feel panicky. Even cartoon ones. I almost puke when I think that I ate escargot in 8th grade. OMG. *runs to bathroom*

*squeeeeeeeem*

I don't know what to do. I'm sick with worry. Billy's got out of his cage and I can't find him anywhere. I spent an hour and a half turning the house upside down trying to find him, then I set a 'trap' (a bin with a teatowel over it with peanuts on top and a ramp up to it) and that's been set for an hour with me leaving it quiet. Not a sign of him.

Nothing looks chewed. I can't tell where he's gone at all. I've emptied all bags and boxes and lifted everything off the floor he could hide in (checking it first)

My head hurts, I feel so sick and dizzy. I went to have a lie down before I get a full on panic attack but I feel awful.

It's so warm lately and he can't get to his water!! I've put a little dish of water out and some cucumber so hopefully he'll find it.

He's so scared of everything, he's not a very brave hamster. He must be terrified.

I'm so worried about him. What if he's dead somewhere??

god.

I just had a huge opportunity handed to me and I'm so fucking excited that I think I'm gonna throw up.

how am I gonna sleep tonight!

MTV is developing a remake of 1975 cult classic The Rocky Horror Picture Show, reports Variety.

THIS IS AN OUTRAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even though I myself am a Rocky Horror snob because I prefer the play that I went to every weekend in high school, but still. NO one should be Frank N Furter except Tim Curry.

I realized that I've been commenting w/o (re)introducing myself. I used to post here a bit quite awhile ago as meatbunny. Tragically, Meat died this past April (I don't know exactly how, though my best guess is GI stasis. If you want more info, read the last few posts in her LJ).

I wasn't planning on getting another rabbit this soon, but I was keeping an eye on Craigslist & Petfinder, just in case a rabbit showed up saying "you need to come get me, now". Whelp, that rabbit happened to be Anya.

Anya is a REW New Zealand doe, about 2 years old & weighing around 10 lbs. When she was a baby, some guy fed her to his snake. Anya killed the snake. o_O Luckily, Snake Owner's SO stopped him from killing Anya & took her to an animal shelter instead, where she was eventually rescued by Little Miracles Rabbit Rescue. She was adopted once, then returned, apparently because she was too destructive. :( Well, I'm happy to say that although she is, in fact, quite the Destructo-Bun, she's got a Forever Home with me.

( cleek for peektures! )

When I grow up, I wanna have moobies?  The original is OK, the video breakdown is better, but I like this rap remix, probably cuz PCD is hardly on it except sanging hooks like Patti Labelle or somebody!

LISTEN HERE (the download link is under the player, middle button)

Today in summary: free pancakes, big ass planes, Thunderbirds, and rodeo.

The only bad part of today was the fucking idiot from Arizona that didn't know how to park and whose bumper was pressed up to ours when we got back from the air show.

Who, for one, is that fucking dumb that they can't park without hitting the car in front of them (these were oversized spots).

And two, who the fuck HITS a car (they had to have noticed, unless the driver was blind--a possibility I suppose) and just leaves it that way? Honestly? IN A STATE WHERE A GOOD AMOUNT OF THE POPULATION HAS A LOADED GUN IN THEIR CAR?

There was barely a scratch. Still doesn't make it any less stupid. That's the first (and hopefully only) dipshit we've encountered so far in four days, and they aren't even from near here. There's so many idiots back in Chicago that I don't even drive back there anymore. It's not bad in comparision.

No, I think Pluto still has a good gig at Disneyland.

As an update on my earlier post, I got my mom to swab [a squirming] Magneto's scent gland on his belly with luke warm water on a Q-Tip while I attempted to hold him and the yellow-y stuff seems to have wiped off so, thank God, it wasn't crust. I'll check the gland again tomorrow to make sure it's still clear but it looks like he's fine! xD

My boxers, Bruno & Brody, turn ONE tomorrow.... They are growing up so fast!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had them a little party today, and thought I'd post a few pictures....

But first, let me share their baby picture!!!!!!



( And now they are big boys!!! )

Happy Birthday Bruno and Brody!!!!!!!

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